Dachau

Maybe my parents shouldn’t have taken me to Dachau to tour the concentration camp and museum when I was a child. I was four or five. My brother still in a stroller. And what I saw there. What I saw. Well, I’ve spent the rest of my life trying to make sense of what I saw there. Trying to understand how hatred becomes an industry. For a time, I read extensively about the Holocaust. It was my obsession in school. I read plays, biographies, histories, memoirs. And in the eighth grade, I wrote a short story about a soldier who resists the Nazi dogma. At first. I wrote his gradual descent into barbarism. I was 14.

I can’t find that story, and it may be just as well. I won a prize for writing it. That story tapped into a rage I didn’t know existed. A rage I had at the people who committed the atrocities, and the people who witnessed the atrocities and the world. This shabby world. And what would I have done? What would I have done? Could I have resisted?

We tell ourselves we will resist evil. We will fight tyranny. But in this country, most of us are too lazy to vote. An act which costs us nothing. An opportunity our forebears died for. And we make our lazy excuses. Politics: It’s all bullshit. One government is the same as another.

That’s right. There’s nothing at stake here. The parties are the same. Way to keep up on current events. Am I telling you that your apathy leads to concentration camps? No. I’m telling you that your apathy costs the powerful nothing. Your apathy is what they count on. Your apathy keeps you where you are, brother. Your apathy makes you a tool, sister. We love to say how we would fight the Nazis. How it would never have been us, forcing people into the showers. How we would have resisted. We would have resisted men who would subjugate us. Here’s your chance.

Here’s your chance to say that education does matter. That women’s bodies belong to them. That fair wages are a right. That we have a safety net because the vulnerable deserve our protection. That financial crimes are serious and will have harsh penalties. That our terrible wars have bred terrible policies. That national security is an unacceptable legal veil just like corporate personhood is an unacceptable legal veil. That creationism is not science. That gay people deserve the same rights straight people have. You fuckers work for us. Tell them. Tell every goddamn one of them. They work for you. And you’re watching. And you’re voting. And you expect good will. Speak truth to power.

5 thoughts on “Dachau”

  1. Marianne K. Martin

    So, so powerful, Jill!

    Please shout this from the mountain tops. Shout it until we all join you!!!!!

  2. Voting is the only place besides a jury box where we are free to be who we are. I vote because I can, because must. I really hate when someone says, I’m just not going to vote this year. I don’t like either candidate. As if voting is like choosing which vegetable we must eat for the next four years. “I don’t like broccoli or asparagu
    I vote because for now, at least, corporation’s can’t. They can spend, but they don’t vote.
    I vote because it is the one place where I get to say,my body belongs to me, not to a bunch of white men .
    I vote because I want a legislature that works as hard as I do to make sure I still have a job.
    I vote because I never want another Clarence Thomas on the Supreme Court.
    I will vote because I know women marched and went to jail so that I can.
    I will vote because Fannie Lou Hammer did not suffer beatings and unlawful imprisonment so I could stay home.
    I will vote because I have a nephew in the Marines heading back for a second tour in Afghanistan.
    I will vote because the next time a bank gets too big to fail, I waple in Congress who will help bail me out, not the bank.
    I will vote. I will stand in line at my precinct with all all the (mostly) black folks who in 2008 were so quiet. That time, no one talked. We all knew we were participating in an historic act. It made us solemn.
    I will vote, because people motivated by fear, apathy, arrogance, or plain wrong-handedness should not sit in seats once held by great people who were humbled to sit there. Lincoln. Thurmond Marshall. Barbara Jordan. Shirley Chisholm. Hillary Clinton. Bernie Sanders.
    I will vote because I believe I should have the right to get married and have my marriage recognized by the federal government.
    I will vote because I can, because I must, because I am a person, not a corporation.
    I will vote. I will.

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Jill Malone

Jill Malone grew up in a military family, went to German kindergarten, and lived across from a bakery that made gummi bears the size of mice. She has lived on the East Coast and in Hawaii, and for the last seventeen years in Spokane with her son, two dogs, a hedgehog, and a lot of outdoor gear. She looks for any excuse to play guitar. Jill is married to a performance artist and addiction counselor who makes the best risotto on the planet.

Giraffe People is her third novel. Her first novel, Red Audrey and the Roping, was a Lambda finalist and won the third annual Bywater Prize for Fiction. A Field Guide to Deception, her second novel, was a finalist for the Ferro-Grumley, and won the Lambda Literary Award and the Great Northwest Book Festival.

Giraffe People

Giraffe People

Between God and the army, fifteen-year-old Cole Peters has more than enough to rebel against. But this Chaplain’s daughter isn’t resorting to drugs or craziness. Truth to tell, she’s content with her soccer team and her band and her white bread boyfriend.

And then, of course, there’s Meghan.

Meghan is eighteen years old and preparing for entry into West Point. For this she has sponsors: Cole’s parents. They’re delighted their daughter is finally looking up to someone. Someone who can tutor her and be a friend.

But one night that relationship changes and Cole’s world flips.

Giraffe People is a potent reminder of the rites of passage and passion that we all endure on our road to growing up and growing strong. Award-winning author Jill Malone tells a story of coming out and coming of age, giving us a take that is both subtle and fresh.

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A Field Guide to Deception

A Field Guide to Deception

In Jill Malone’s second novel, A Field Guide to Deception, nothing is as simple as it appears: community, notions of motherhood, the nature of goodness, nor even compelling love. Revelations are punctured and then revisited with deeper insight, alliances shift, and heroes turn anti-hero—and vice versa.

With her aunt’s death Claire Bernard loses her best companion, her livelihood, and her son’s co-parent. Malone’s smart, intriguing writing beguiles the reader into this taut, compelling story of a makeshift family and the reawakening of a past they’d hoped to outrun. Claire’s journey is the unifying tension in this book of layered and shifting alliances.

A Field Guide to Deception is a serious novel filled with snappy dialogue, quick-moving and funny incidents, compelling characterizations, mysterious plot twists, and an unexpected climax. It is a rich, complex tale for literary readers.

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Red Audrey and the Roping

Red Audrey and the Roping

Occasionally a debut novel comes along that rocks its readers back on their heels. Red Audrey and the Roping is one of that rare and remarkable breed. With storytelling as accomplished as successful literary novelists like Margaret Atwood and Sarah Waters, Jill Malone takes us on a journey through the heart of Latin professor Jane Elliot.

Set against the dramatic landscapes and seascapes of Hawaii, this is the deeply moving story of a young woman traumatized by her mother’s death. Scarred by guilt, she struggles to find the nerve to let love into her life again. Afraid to love herself or anyone else, Jane falls in love with risk, pitting herself against the world with dogged, destructive courage. But finally she reaches a point where there is only one danger left worth facing. The sole remaining question for Jane is whether she is willing to accept her history, embrace her damage, and take a chance on love.

As well as a gripping and emotional story, Red Audrey and the Roping is a remarkable literary achievement. The breathtaking prose evokes setting, characters, and relationships with equal grace. The dialogue sparks and sparkles. Splintered fragments of narrative come together to form a seamless suspenseful story that flows effortlessly to its dramatic conclusion.

Winner of the Bywater Prize for Fiction, Red Audrey and the Roping is one of the most memorable first novels you will ever read.

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