Hi, I'm Jill

I'm a mom, an award-winning author of 3 books, and an avid outdoor adventurer, who married a performance artist and addiction counselor renown for the best risotto on the planet.

I grew up as an Army brat, traveling the world. Now, I'm psyched to live in Spokane and adventure around the Pacific Northwest.

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Anniversary

April 27, 2016
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I fell asleep, despite the dog howling in the neighbor’s yard, and dreamed of ramshackle farms – muck, emaciated chickens. This illness brings clarity. Outdoors now, as the dogs race up and back. I keep thinking of what Beyonce said about lemonade bringing healing. All my recipes served me better when I was not in love. The bible taught me disobedience is the worst crime. That word feels like armor, a sharpened blade, fucking. That...

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Where did she go?

April 25, 2016
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My boss’ mother-in-law died over the weekend in Hospice Care. Last week, he told me, “She’s just a super rad person. Vibrant right up ’til now.” She was 92. My boss and his wife sat with the mother while she died. He described her breathing. What his wife said. How hard it was. And because we’re Irish, we made jokes about our sadness. Isn’t it odd how the injury from death is in the...

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Free

April 6, 2016
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Mary and the grandkid are working in the side yard when they holler for more supplies. “Mar,” I say, handing her the paneling, “she’s got a pair of scissors over there.” “Yes, I told her not to touch the silver part and that she can cut away at the weeds.” “She’s four,” I say, unnecessarily. “Yes, Jill Malone. She’s perfectly all right. ‘Tesla, which part of the scissors can you touch?'” “Only the blue...

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Helper

April 5, 2016
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We’d already been in the parking lot outside the auto-parts store for an embarrassing amount of time. That doesn’t take into account how long we’d been in the front yard removing the bent screws that pinned the old license plate before we’d even left home. Now, oil pooled in every direction, we crouched and stood and crouched, trying a number of different screws and bolts, slipping our thin arms through the front of the...

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Stress monkey

March 18, 2016
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“It’s probably good,” I tell her, “I’ve never had a little dog before. Clearly I let Hazel get away with murder. Is she the most neurotic creature ever? No doubt. But she’s so adorable.” “Like dog, like owner,” Mary says. “What do you mean? I’m not neurotic.” Mary. Staring. “Are you kidding?” “How am I neurotic?” “You are a catastrophizer on an epic scale.” Is that a real word? I wonder. “How? How am...

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Reap

March 17, 2016
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For the first time since we moved into our fixer upper, I don’t have a house project. This spring, all I have to think about is the garden. What would I like to plant? Where do we need trees? If we had chickens, could I walk anywhere near them without being terrified? I’ve looked up plants that foster bees. Plants that can survive with little water. Plants that thrive when a woman can’t tell...

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Privacy

February 19, 2016
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I was twelve the first time I shaved my legs. Nervous, I locked the bathroom door and spent quite a while sorting out how to navigate my ankles and knees, and how high you’re actually supposed to shave. Before I’d finished, my dad kicked the door in and dragged me through the house to the foot of my mother. He was yelling about how we don’t lock doors in this house and we especially don’t...

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Girl with heron

January 1, 2016
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In the dream, a heron slopes by. There’s a river, and a fence, and stone walls everywhere. I’m standing in a pasture. Behind me are sheep. It’s Ireland, from an August when I was 23. The woman I am infrequently sleeping with is somewhere nearby. But it’s the heron I watch. It’s dark and rough, like the fence, and the orange dingy dragged up the bank. I am 23 and such a coward. I...

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A story as told to me by Gavin

December 30, 2015
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“We were given this assignment to write a story: it had to be about a brother and sister and how they wanted a pet. And I was like, YEAH! Because we never to get to write stories. So, this girl named Rose is kind of punk rock, but she also loves pockets and she really wants a hamster because it would fit in her pocket. Anyway, her brother is kind of a nerd, a...

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Hush little baby now don't you cry

December 10, 2015
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Two nights ago, I dreamed my aunt and her husband came to visit me in a high-ceiling town house in New Orleans. He stood at the base of the stairs in the hallway, and she followed me into the kitchen. We were both young women. And my son was in pajamas next to a carton of eggs. I was crying. My aunt lifted me – up, up, up – by the refrigerator. And then...

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