My Saturn Return was a serious flaying. Birth of first child, quit job, get another job, affair, separation, date crazy girl, divorce, family bothered by divorce and by girl, etc. It was a really long journey. And most of what I learned was that everything is transient. Eventually even pain ends. That’s kind of a crucial concept, really. Kind of a hopeful one.
I think Saturn is about the strip down. The paring away of all those things you have clung to. Your concepts of yourself, and money, and comfort, and the things you take for granted like friendship and family and love. Well, anyway, that was my journey. Your journey will be yours.
But the part I love is the aftermath. When you, naked, look at the garden you have left, and realize that you weren’t so much thrown out — not really, not thrown. It’s not the disobedience that ruined you, but knowledge. Knowledge is what made where you were a place you could no longer stay. Knowledge is what allowed a new journey to find you.