Solace

This whole Amazon thing has made me overwhelmingly sad. That it might come down to some poor bastard not understanding the difference between “erotica” and “sexuality” is not helping much. At the bookstore, a couple of years ago, the managers got into an argument about whether or not the GQ and Vanity Fair magazines were inappropriate. One thought they should be covered with one of those plastic guards, along with Maxim. When I told her that was censorious, she nearly exploded. Her position was that as long as we carried the magazines, where we displayed them didn’t matter. 

I have trouble with that position. Of course display matters. Sales are influenced by how hard someone has to search for something. The more readily available, and visible you make something, the easier it is to buy. 

Even within the queer community, a debate about tags and categories rages. Do you want your novels in the Gay & Lesbian section, or in General Fiction? Ellen Hart answered this question by saying, “I want my books on the table by the cash register.”

Or, looked at another way: my son has recently begun to say grace before meals. “Now we got to say prawr everybody.” And he reaches out to take our hands. I felt uncomfortable during these first prayers, and each time he suggests it, I fight my own hesitation. He deserves his opportunity to seek god. He deserves his opportunity to believe. That is all. I do not get to dictate, as his mother, simply because I do not believe.

In the end, this is all I want: the same rights and opportunities for myself and my work as everyone else has.

3 thoughts on “Solace”

  1. Amazon’s emailed response to the AmazonFail fiasco:

    “This is an embarrassing and ham-fisted cataloging error for a company that prides itself on offering complete selection.

    It has been misreported that the issue was limited to Gay & Lesbian themed titles – in fact, it impacted 57,310 books in a number of broad categories such as Health, Mind & Body, Reproductive & Sexual Medicine, and Erotica. This problem impacted books not just in the United States but globally. It affected not just sales rank but also had the effect of removing the books from Amazon’s main product search.

    Many books have now been fixed and we’re in the process of fixing the remainder as quickly as possible, and we intend to implement new measures to make this kind of accident less likely to occur in the future.”

  2. So, while this Amazon business was blowing up, I went through a range of emotions, and teetered on closing my well-used account. But I did refrain from commenting about it here, and on the many other websites reporting it because, frankly, I wasn’t sure I believed the accusations of intentionality.

    I’m incredibly relieved to see that it was, in fact, a “glitch.”

    The libertarian in me wants to scream bloody murder at the first sign of any censorship. But then, I think, life is just a series of grey areas. There are exceptions to every rule.

    I like what you said about holding yourself back, and allowing your son to make his own decisions. And yet, surely there will times when this is impossible, no?

  3. No question those times will come. Do you remember your story about your friend and Santa Claus? That’s sort of how I feel about this. It’s all part of the magic for me; part of the mythology of childhood. Like scary stories and monsters and the easter bunny and the tooth fairy.

    Of course, at present the prayers are incomprehensible, except for his final, “The End.” That makes it easier too….

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Jill Malone

Jill Malone grew up in a military family, went to German kindergarten, and lived across from a bakery that made gummi bears the size of mice. She has lived on the East Coast and in Hawaii, and for the last seventeen years in Spokane with her son, two dogs, a hedgehog, and a lot of outdoor gear. She looks for any excuse to play guitar. Jill is married to a performance artist and addiction counselor who makes the best risotto on the planet.

Giraffe People is her third novel. Her first novel, Red Audrey and the Roping, was a Lambda finalist and won the third annual Bywater Prize for Fiction. A Field Guide to Deception, her second novel, was a finalist for the Ferro-Grumley, and won the Lambda Literary Award and the Great Northwest Book Festival.

Giraffe People

Giraffe People

Between God and the army, fifteen-year-old Cole Peters has more than enough to rebel against. But this Chaplain’s daughter isn’t resorting to drugs or craziness. Truth to tell, she’s content with her soccer team and her band and her white bread boyfriend.

And then, of course, there’s Meghan.

Meghan is eighteen years old and preparing for entry into West Point. For this she has sponsors: Cole’s parents. They’re delighted their daughter is finally looking up to someone. Someone who can tutor her and be a friend.

But one night that relationship changes and Cole’s world flips.

Giraffe People is a potent reminder of the rites of passage and passion that we all endure on our road to growing up and growing strong. Award-winning author Jill Malone tells a story of coming out and coming of age, giving us a take that is both subtle and fresh.

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A Field Guide to Deception

A Field Guide to Deception

In Jill Malone’s second novel, A Field Guide to Deception, nothing is as simple as it appears: community, notions of motherhood, the nature of goodness, nor even compelling love. Revelations are punctured and then revisited with deeper insight, alliances shift, and heroes turn anti-hero—and vice versa.

With her aunt’s death Claire Bernard loses her best companion, her livelihood, and her son’s co-parent. Malone’s smart, intriguing writing beguiles the reader into this taut, compelling story of a makeshift family and the reawakening of a past they’d hoped to outrun. Claire’s journey is the unifying tension in this book of layered and shifting alliances.

A Field Guide to Deception is a serious novel filled with snappy dialogue, quick-moving and funny incidents, compelling characterizations, mysterious plot twists, and an unexpected climax. It is a rich, complex tale for literary readers.

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Red Audrey and the Roping

Red Audrey and the Roping

Occasionally a debut novel comes along that rocks its readers back on their heels. Red Audrey and the Roping is one of that rare and remarkable breed. With storytelling as accomplished as successful literary novelists like Margaret Atwood and Sarah Waters, Jill Malone takes us on a journey through the heart of Latin professor Jane Elliot.

Set against the dramatic landscapes and seascapes of Hawaii, this is the deeply moving story of a young woman traumatized by her mother’s death. Scarred by guilt, she struggles to find the nerve to let love into her life again. Afraid to love herself or anyone else, Jane falls in love with risk, pitting herself against the world with dogged, destructive courage. But finally she reaches a point where there is only one danger left worth facing. The sole remaining question for Jane is whether she is willing to accept her history, embrace her damage, and take a chance on love.

As well as a gripping and emotional story, Red Audrey and the Roping is a remarkable literary achievement. The breathtaking prose evokes setting, characters, and relationships with equal grace. The dialogue sparks and sparkles. Splintered fragments of narrative come together to form a seamless suspenseful story that flows effortlessly to its dramatic conclusion.

Winner of the Bywater Prize for Fiction, Red Audrey and the Roping is one of the most memorable first novels you will ever read.

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