Wedded

During practice, I managed to get through my wedding speech three times without my voice cracking. But, until the actual ceremony, I’d never cried at the beginning. In the middle of the second paragraph, I couldn’t speak. It’s so rare to be able to participate in moments of pure emotion. At the foot of a grand staircase, in the middle of a bookstore, I married two of my favorite women. I cried my way through the second paragraph. I cried during their vows. It was one of the most authentic experiences of my life. Like childbirth. That analogy sat in my head as I walked down the staircase with my son, the ring bearer. It lived there as I danced with him afterward at the dance party. We rawred to Lady Gaga, and spun to Dancing Queen, and the flowered cakes gave us rushes, and the joy overflowed. Even Journey didn’t suck.

I’m still high. Still sore at heart and heel. Why is it that this must be warred for: this love, this communion?  It’s human. Ancient and inalienable, surely. How we come together. How we celebrate. How we foster commitment as a community. These are lizard brain instincts. Simple. Love is simple.

3 thoughts on “Wedded”

  1. I remember the first time I went to a same-sex wedding. It was years ago, before we got to where we are now, and I thought, “why are they doing this? What’s the point? Why spend the money?” After that day, that thought was completely erased from my mind. I saw that it changed the boundaries of that relationship. The changes that took place in that 15 minute ceremony were real, though they could not be put on paper. They were a spoken promise of two people who trusted each other, and the rest of us believed them.

  2. Heather O'Byrne

    This is the best inspiration for me… for the longest time I had a verrry cynical attitude towards marriage.. but truthfully, it’s the ultimate testament of your love for another in front of all that matter to you.. which is why I never understood people objecting to a same-sex marriage. All that matters is they love, and the end. I’m glad it felt so pure and good.. I’m pretty sure when Tim & me get married, I’m going to be blubbering my vows 😛

  3. Word. It took me a long time to understand the point of a wedding. I see it now. The importance of your community acknowledging and witnessing your commitment. The vital component of recognition. Also, authenticity has made me a believer. There’s nothing as intoxicating as a crazy-in-love wedding. It spun everyone in that room. You couldn’t be unmoved.

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Jill Malone

Jill Malone grew up in a military family, went to German kindergarten, and lived across from a bakery that made gummi bears the size of mice. She has lived on the East Coast and in Hawaii, and for the last seventeen years in Spokane with her son, two dogs, a hedgehog, and a lot of outdoor gear. She looks for any excuse to play guitar. Jill is married to a performance artist and addiction counselor who makes the best risotto on the planet.

Giraffe People is her third novel. Her first novel, Red Audrey and the Roping, was a Lambda finalist and won the third annual Bywater Prize for Fiction. A Field Guide to Deception, her second novel, was a finalist for the Ferro-Grumley, and won the Lambda Literary Award and the Great Northwest Book Festival.

Giraffe People

Giraffe People

Between God and the army, fifteen-year-old Cole Peters has more than enough to rebel against. But this Chaplain’s daughter isn’t resorting to drugs or craziness. Truth to tell, she’s content with her soccer team and her band and her white bread boyfriend.

And then, of course, there’s Meghan.

Meghan is eighteen years old and preparing for entry into West Point. For this she has sponsors: Cole’s parents. They’re delighted their daughter is finally looking up to someone. Someone who can tutor her and be a friend.

But one night that relationship changes and Cole’s world flips.

Giraffe People is a potent reminder of the rites of passage and passion that we all endure on our road to growing up and growing strong. Award-winning author Jill Malone tells a story of coming out and coming of age, giving us a take that is both subtle and fresh.

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A Field Guide to Deception

A Field Guide to Deception

In Jill Malone’s second novel, A Field Guide to Deception, nothing is as simple as it appears: community, notions of motherhood, the nature of goodness, nor even compelling love. Revelations are punctured and then revisited with deeper insight, alliances shift, and heroes turn anti-hero—and vice versa.

With her aunt’s death Claire Bernard loses her best companion, her livelihood, and her son’s co-parent. Malone’s smart, intriguing writing beguiles the reader into this taut, compelling story of a makeshift family and the reawakening of a past they’d hoped to outrun. Claire’s journey is the unifying tension in this book of layered and shifting alliances.

A Field Guide to Deception is a serious novel filled with snappy dialogue, quick-moving and funny incidents, compelling characterizations, mysterious plot twists, and an unexpected climax. It is a rich, complex tale for literary readers.

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Red Audrey and the Roping

Red Audrey and the Roping

Occasionally a debut novel comes along that rocks its readers back on their heels. Red Audrey and the Roping is one of that rare and remarkable breed. With storytelling as accomplished as successful literary novelists like Margaret Atwood and Sarah Waters, Jill Malone takes us on a journey through the heart of Latin professor Jane Elliot.

Set against the dramatic landscapes and seascapes of Hawaii, this is the deeply moving story of a young woman traumatized by her mother’s death. Scarred by guilt, she struggles to find the nerve to let love into her life again. Afraid to love herself or anyone else, Jane falls in love with risk, pitting herself against the world with dogged, destructive courage. But finally she reaches a point where there is only one danger left worth facing. The sole remaining question for Jane is whether she is willing to accept her history, embrace her damage, and take a chance on love.

As well as a gripping and emotional story, Red Audrey and the Roping is a remarkable literary achievement. The breathtaking prose evokes setting, characters, and relationships with equal grace. The dialogue sparks and sparkles. Splintered fragments of narrative come together to form a seamless suspenseful story that flows effortlessly to its dramatic conclusion.

Winner of the Bywater Prize for Fiction, Red Audrey and the Roping is one of the most memorable first novels you will ever read.

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